March 15, 2004


Micky's not allowed on the truck
The rookie says 'Micky's lost it'
The only call the rookie has attended was a private fire alarm
And yep, it was the toast again

Micky's been an ambulance officer for 15 years, 8 of them a firefighter too
In 6 weeks Micky attended 5 major motor crashes, 4 were fatalities,
7 people died

Most on the scene 4 of them
Micky called the k41...death
They don't go away

Micky sees the firefighter in uniform driving home from a course
The kid curled up in the back seat with no seat belt
The driver who died so quick he didn't have time to bleed

The old guy whose chest and face
Had nearly demolished the steering wheel
The mother of 3 little kids,
Children who now have to live without a mother
One in a wheel chair

The lady, pregnant with twins,
Who had a car land upside down on her head
Her son 6 years old,

Micky got him out
Micky worked real hard but he was just too badly hurt
Micky's never spewed at a crash, well not till that day

Two days later Micky looked after a best mate,
He had cancer; he died 5 days later
Micky told him, 'Micky would be there',
Micky kept the promise

He would have listened;
He would have kicked Micky's butt and made it ok
Micky's alone now

Micky seems real good at upsetting people, hurting people, losing friends
Micky's dead, wants to die, and wants the pain to go away
What pain?
Micky doesn't feel anything
Well maybe anger and hate and frustration

Micky wants it to be like it was before
Micky was up for promotion, that won't happen, not now
Micky wants to get on the truck
Maybe then things can be normal
Micky's not allowed on the truck

Copyright 2004 Micky Sherwood
This is a poem by me. I can't explain how/why it's so important. I realize it may be too much for some people but can't apologize for that for probably the same weird type reason I sorta need to let heaps of people know this:

March 15, 2004

"So many MEMORIES, so little TIME!"
Stephen Andrew Steiner
Submitted by Elizabeth M., Age 15 --- Ohio
Ricky Matter, one of the nicest kids one could know, died in a car crash on Valentine's Day, 2004. He was a freshman at our high school and only 15. Our whole entire school spent today grieving for his loss, and the funeral is tomorrow. This quote reminded me of Ricky.

March 15, 2004

"They say that God takes away the things that are held most sacred to us in order for you not to take things for granted. I hate to be the one to break it to him, but he's not taking you away from me."
Copyright 2004 Mathew Ravelo

March 15, 2004

"In the morning, the sun's gonna shine.!"
Author Unknown
Submitted by Cassie H., Age 16 --- Arkansas
I submitted this because there have been days when I never thought I would go on. Then I remembered this quote. And every new day brings a chance to change the things that have happened. Just remember, no matter what, you can wake up refreshed and forget the bad. Always remember you are never alone, God is here for you!

March 15, 2004

"What you do in life does not define you, how you do it does."
Written in 2004 by F. Williamson --- South Carolina

March 15, 2004

"I don't want to die, obviously, but really, the wonder of life is amplified by the fact that it ends. If it went on forever, it would be such a tiresome thing and we'd all be so bored: What are we gonna do today? Just live again, I suppose."
David J. Matthews
Submitted by Doug L., Age 16 --- New York
This quote always helps me see the brighter side of things, no matter how dark they may seem. I hope that it helps others in the same way it has helped me.

March 15, 2004

"Go ahead and commit suicide....but before you do, think about all the people that you hurt..not just yourself and your own pain. You will be hurting friends and everyone that loves you, even if you don't know that they do."
Written in 2004 by Tyren M., Age 13 --- Texas
I wrote this for a friend who had been thinking of suicide. I finally got pissed at her for even thinking about committing suicide and wrote this to her. She says she thinks about it every time she thinks about committing suicide and that it helped her.

March 15, 2004

"My heart fell and broke, the shards, cut my hands and my soul drips. I am not fazed by the loss of my soul but I am in preparation to start living again, only after this time in my life has become tired out and faded. I am ready to start healing and to try and move on."
Copyright 2004 Jessie Morgan
When you find you are struggling so hard to survive and you don't want to take another breath because the pain is too great, you must be patient. This time in your life will make you stronger and help you grow. Then you can start to heal and let go of this chapter in your life, but it wasn't wasted, because you learned from it, and are stronger than ever.

March 15, 2004

"When we are going through dark times, we are better able to let go of egotism and arrogance. Difficulties can help us grow in patience, understanding, and humility; they can help us seek out meaningful connection."
Lama Surya Das
Submitted by Giselle H., Age 17 --- Illinois

March 15, 2004

I was sitting at home in my living and my mom got a phone call. When she got off she said," Zack is dead." I didn't know whether or not to believe her. Zack was the coolest guy I knew. I was in shock, I went upstairs and then my sister got a call. She told me that Zack hung himself. I lost it. I broke down and cried all night. The next day of school was worse. People were all sad, but still I felt like they didn't understand I loved Zack. That week, when I was at his viewing it hit me, he was actually gone and that was my last time to ever see him, EVER.

It has been 6 months since he has passed away and I have a feeling I'm going to miss him for the rest of my life. But every night before I go to bed, I close my eyes and think of his perfect smile, his great personality, and the great things we did together. Life will go on, but it may not feel like it now. I loved Zack, he was a great friend, but the memories will live in me for the rest of my life. The best thing to do is to remember the good not the bad; it really does work.

Written in 2004 by Amy S., Age 13 --- West Virginia

March 15, 2004

"Grief is a journey through pain that takes you back to the joy of love."
Copyright 2003 Sally Scott